This may just be a rant but it’s something I need to say.

TW: sexual assault, religious & patriarchal brainwashing

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With everything going on in the States right now, I have been somewhat triggered and struggling with ptsd from past sexual assault trauma. But that in no way compares to the intense struggle that I’m having right now with the trauma of seeing women who have been brainwashed by religion and the patriarchy defend Kavanaugh. For nearly 15 years I was one of those people brainwashed by religion and yet I still can not fathom how people are sharing these posts on social media. I’m tired and hurting from the wounds opening back up that were inflicted upon me in the name of religion.

In my post Ye of little faith.. I share some of my struggles with religion.

There has been all kinds of talk about self care regarding past sexual assault and of course this is important. I know, I’ve endured the rehashing of shameful feelings in the wake of Dr. Ford’s accusations which I absolutely believe by the way. But nobody is talking about the ptsd from religious brainwashing and this is something that I’m struggling with far more with the onslaught of social media posts after the hearing.

I can not tolerate hate. No matter which side it’s coming from. And I am thankful for the faith filled people in my life recently who have reached out and shown me the love I should’ve been shown & taught 15 years ago.

I don’t know what the point of this post is honestly. Maybe I just want to know if others are struggling with the aftermath of the hearing as much as I am? Are there others who are being this affected by the support being shown to Kavanaugh on social media or is it just me?

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