“My body wasn’t what was wrong, but the expectations of the world around me were”. It’s amazing how a few words can resonate so strongly at times.
I’ve been doing a lot of research lately about the different types of dysphoria associated with gender identity. And let me preface this post by saying that I am very much still in the learning, growing and changing phase of understanding my own gender identity as well as gender identity as a whole.
The definition of dysphoria is a state of feeling unwell, unease or dissatisfaction with life.
Dysphoria applied to gender simply means to me a state of feeling unwell, unease or dissatisfaction with one’s gender.
In a previous post I stated that I don’t believe that gender dysphoria is an essential or determining factor in being a trans person. Up until today, I totally believed this. But when I consider the definition of dysphoria and relate it to gender, I can no longer say this. I used to think that if I had gender dysphoria that meant I had to want surgery to alter my body. I don’t have the need or desire to have such surgeries therefore I assumed that I did not have gender dysphoria.
I am constantly in a state of feeling unwell, unease and dissatisfaction with the gender that I was assigned at birth. But I don’t necessarily have issues with my body, at least not to a point where I have the need for surgery of any kind.
The dysphoria that I have is in the way the world perceives me and in the way I think and act because of society’s expectations of gender. So now I am left wondering if gender norms, roles and stereotypes were non existent, would I still struggle with dysphoria?